Still struggling

WTF I should go to a psychiatrist and ask what could be done to stay fucking sane. I shit you not, I'd give up many things for a pill or two of Nozepam or anything similar, but it's almost impossible to get a prescription without ruining your life. Cause if you get registered as a patient, you can't drive, work or do whatever a normal person does.

OK, I'm exaggerating my mental state. I'm fine. Just sad. A nothing-can-be-done-about-it sad.